Him

I have that one person in my life. The one that I love the most,and the one that I think I will never be able to forget. He wasn’t my first love;however, he was the one that I truly loved. By loving him, I have learnt a lot of things. I have come understand what does loving someone really like. I have come to realize that it is not about the outside appearances or the materials. When you find the one for you, you both will just like connect to each other. And that when the cooler or the better guys don’t matter anymore. Why? Easy question! “Because they’re not him” .Then I have come to understand what people means when they said loving someone means accepting all their flaws. He made mistakes;he has shown me his imperfect sides that I had never expected. I don’t know how,but instead of running away, I learnt to accept him as who he is and love him with all his flaws. I have learnt to forgive and give people chances even if I know they ain’t gonna change,and I would end up get hurt again. why? easy question again! Because rather than looking stupid or easy, I don’t wanna lose him. I had always believed that we could happen; had always believe that I could save us.

but in the end, I couldn’t…….

Because loving him didn’t teach me to be patient.. It didn’t teach me to overcome my insecure.It didn’t teach me to say exactly how I feel;It didn’t teach me to talk to each other about the problem, instead of ignoring each other texts for months.I was young and immature,and I let my pride and ego took over me.

or maybe

we didn’t feel the same way and I had never been enough for him.